Joshua Hamilton Brayley

st joseph's hospital foundation

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 18:47:31 GMT

so im here at work... its slow and hot and rainy.... i wana do something tonight! i hope i get to do something free, i hate spending money, its depressing... anyways, mis everyone! josh

failure

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 20:49:34 GMT

so it looks like ive failed to keep my journal updated :( but i did get to see my girlfriend for a few days (it did cost me 400 dollars and 102 hours on a bus) but it was wicked visit, her sister was getting married, so i used it as an excuse to go see her :D it was a great visit and im sad its over, but i get to see her in 48 days, so it could be worse, anywho, im back to work, and ill hopefully update soon with more info on my little adventure across canada!
honey bunches of oats
oh and im probably being fired on monday from cendant

makin it work...yaaada yaaaada yaaada... makin it work

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 22:11:32 GMT

so yeah, i think its time i neaten up my LJ habbits, and start getting back into this... not that i ever was hardcore, but i think if i formalize this a bit more and try and use it as some kind of daily reflection... not that my days have that much to reflect upon, but alas, why not? anywho, this is all a vague plan... so if it happens, you all have to congradulate me... and if not, hound me to do it! thats right HOUND... lol, anyways, im gonna get back to work!
Josh

WOOT WOOT

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 22:41:35 GMT

I am a member of 3 cliques of size 4

canadianjuggler, little_oblivion, lightstarr, gilmore_girl

canadianjuggler, little_oblivion, fadingvisions, the_pipe_troll

canadianjuggler, little_oblivion, the_pipe_troll, albnl

Cendant Madness

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 20:57:18 GMT

ARRGGHHH, im beginning to hate my job, i cant seem to keep as cool and as calm about it as i used to be... i dont know if its just because i feel like i havent seen my friends in forever or if its the fact my life is work... sleep... work... sleep, and occasionaly i may get to go out, but i still feel like my life is wasting away, i dont sleep well, i sleep to long, i wkae up and do nothing, and then go to work.. and even on my days off i sleep most of the day as to not mess my body up, so i miss out yet again... argh...
and just so everyone one knows, this could just be a bad day, and whatnot, lol, but yeah, i like the people i work with though, its sjust that i dont get to see them much, or rather talk to them due to teh fact im on the phone my entire shift!! woo im moody today, andwho, id like to dedicate this rant to all the friends im not seeing right now, and of course michelle!.. those of you wondering who she is, shes the ride i forgot to mention, shes a cool gal!
~Josh~
p.s. arrrgggggghh

JUNGLE JIMS

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 04:31:32 GMT

yeah on my lunch.. me and morgan (cousin im in love with) went to jungle jims for some wings! we ended up taking an hour, so we were late and a little bit too tipsy when we came back to work! so that made the day fly by a little faster, i enjoyed the wings, they were hot damn.... so yeah i work tomorrow for canada day, but time and a half is pretty good, sadly though it seems that i may need to quit my job and end this 12 days straight working streak due to lack of transportation
see my ride quit... so its not good at all but oh well, what can you do :(
anyways, happ happ canada day everyone :D
I WANT TO GO OUT I NEED TO GET OUT!!!!!
josh...

summer bore

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 22:35:24 GMT

so its starting to happen, work is in full swing, ive got my night shifted body set for the summer, and all is beginning to mold into some kind of pattern...*shudders* my life consists of waking roughly around 1p and then going to work around 3p, i then work till 2am, and return home and chat online... or practice guitar... then it all repeats...

friends...

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 15:30:09 GMT

okay so inve fianlyl figured out how to add friends... now all of you TELL ME YOUR NAMES... so then i can add you... then ill be cool... thats right COOL...*sigh...*tear

BOOm.... says the eardrum

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 21:15:33 GMT

hello again, it looks liek im in for antoher shift at CENDant... yes CENant... im having some trouble with my dad, hes having health problems and was in the hospital last nght for his leg... dn they discovered his heart was worse off... so i dunno wahts goin on, but we will have to wait and see... but yes, on a lighter note, school is looking more and more manageable as the fall comes, ... and as far as a ride goes (getting to wrok and back) michelle has offered to drive me, but its way out of her way and i feel bad... but i dunno, and now my dad is all mad about it, but oh well, im sure somethign will work out and ill haev transpo, for work, well lets see what else is new, oh im trying to get sexy, and stuff, but its not wroking lol, anywho, peace out yea im gangster... oh wait, more to tell, i saw harry potter 3 twice, its pretty good, the first time i was sceptical, but now ive decided i like it... um thats all folks....

first day

Mon, 24 May 2004 11:18:12 GMT

well im now at Cendant....
i had to arrive an hour and a half early due to lack of transportation... but thats okay, at least they have this littl computer sitting in the waiting room.... so my ear was bleeding this morning... kinda scary, and now all the deep sounds echo and kinda make my head hurt... luckily, ive pumped myself full of advil so i can hopefully make it through todays "classroom like" day one of training... oh did i mention it was a holiday... which also kinda sucks, but what can ya do... lets seeeeee what else is knew, OH YEAH, yesterday
yesterday my mother, my little brother, his friend and I, all went canoeing on some river... so anywho, we headed out down the river and found a little beach (as expected casue rivers have beaches) and then, we got out (go figure) and explored the shoreline long enough for me to run back to the boat and leave my fellow boatmates stranded on the shore... so this lead to them jumping in teh water (and by them i mean the two children) and running towards me (luckily to their advantage teh water was only about 3 feet deep....) but yes, so they caught me and such, and then we headed home... on the way home though we decided that since jon's friend was already wet... we could easily put him back in the water....2 minutes later we had attached him to teh tow rope... and had started dragging him down the river... GOOD FUN.... and oh course we cruised along until the entire scouts canada saint john troupe came along beside us... and of course we were towing my little brothers 100lb ass through the ice cold water... so yes... thats my story... THE END
~josh~

back in business

Sat, 22 May 2004 23:20:45 GMT

well long time no hello,
it looks like im back in NB, and the pressure for a live journal has returned, (i love the way this thing never expires) but yes. So ive been home for two weeks now, and its not to bad, minus the fact i miss a certain someone along with a certain city... but what can you do. Calgary was a great 8 months, i learned a lot (not necessecarily academically) but nevertheless i learned a lot. Ive become a recent employee at the cendant call centre, its not bad, but i still wish it payed better. Its full time though, so regardless of the pay i should be able to make some money at least (for next year) SPeaking of next year, heres the not to concrete plan, see, ive made the mistake of messing up my university "effective writing bullshit" but its only cause i didnt take it, but we will have to see.... oh and i got a 2.04 GPA... which is a C average, which is kinda sad, but oh well...
crap, ive gotta go and get ready to go to my brothes, anyway, seeya later, and now taht im home, ill probably update a bit more
BON SOIR
~Josh~

saturday lovin' happened so fasssstttt...

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 23:18:06 GMT

oh man i had the best saturday ever, it was awesome kick ass style :), i woke up at 7:30 and went to visit my neighbor, we cuddled for 8 hours, that brings us to 3:30. when we decided to shoer (not together you sickos....*thinks about it... smiles*... but yes, lol, then we ate soem food (damn i was hngry) and went out to go see elf :) it was awesome, abd thats not even teh best part, so we went to teh movie, highlarious, man i love will farrel, but yes, its a 30 minute c-train ride to get tot eh theatre, so we had a fun time on teh train on teh way there... we were really tired though cause doing nothing all day does taht too you, but yes, it was fun, the movie was good, teh snacks were tasty, and well the despite the fact we spent most of the movie looking at each other (not really, but a lot of it we did) it was awesome... :D, so yes, then we rode teh c-train back, but just as we were mid down town, i somehow decided "lets get off here" adn well we did, lol, jsut randomly at 12:30, wondering downtown calgary :) it was great, i thought we should find a late night chinese place jsut cause it could be cute... *sigh* so yeah, there we were hand in hand walking through teh city, it was just like out of a movie... but yes, we stumbled upon a little spanish place called "le paella" so it was open till 2, and we had time to sneak in some warmth... and a few drinks, so i didnt get id'd and we sat there whilst 40 year olds danced to some spanish music :) the little restuarant was so unique, and everyone there was spanish, lol, i guess that happens at 2am, but yeah, it was great, we had some laughs (even though SOMEONE wouldnt get up and try to dance with me :P) lol, but its al good, so we ended up walking around trying to find a cab, until, finally we did, (after a stop at a bank to warm up) and then we rode the cab home :)... wow, thats a long story... lol, but yeah, it was a blast, oh and now were dating, which im so pumped about, it was so cute how she asked me out, we were both in teh study lounge and she started writing "okay josh will you go out with me... outside for a walk i mean" lol, and of course that pissed me off, but then a few minutes later, she seriously did it :) and my face hurt from smiling... so yeah good times, and im really looking forward to seeing how this relationship works out :) wish me luck ;)

U of C library blues

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 07:09:43 GMT

well hello everyone, im here at the library (hot damn) 'manda, you would love it here, its so your place, newho, its kinda fun, im studying it up with nadine, and im just taking a break and id figure id let some peeps know whats goin on in my life
TODAY
-woke up, went to class
-ate food
-went to gym
-went to mall
-paid 75 dollars for haircut (OMG)
-windo shopped
-thinking of asking daddy for some clothes money
-and now im at the library

...

lol, so yeah, work is good, money is okay, and im so pumped for commin home, i hope some peeps come to teh airport to see me, that would be sweet *hint hint* i shoud be getting in roughly dec 23rd around 11am... so yeah, see you guys soon

~Josh~

good moods

Wed, 19 Nov 2003 22:25:14 GMT

Heylo everyone, i jsut got back from work, and for some reason im in a super good mood (yay me) it was a slow shift, but i got lots done just the same. i woke today to a whole shitload of snow (well 10-15cm) and i was a little discouragd to get out of my warm bed, but i somehow found the energy to get up for my frist class (poli sci) then i ran off to work after that, oh yeah, on the way back from work (2:30) the sky was crazy beautiful, i stopped for a minute on teh sidewalk and just took it all in, it was really somehting spectacular, only a small line of sky was clear, and it had the most amazing shades of blue, it was an awesome spectrum.

so yeah, thats today, and now ive got the night to start my essaay and hopefully get some fun stuff in too, lol, oh yeah, nadine's roommates BF is comming over (first time in a while) so they are gonna be "busy" tonight, lol, so im gonna let her crash in our room (should be fun)

oh yeah i dont know if ive said this already, but my roommates name is matt, lol, hes a crazy skinny kid that loves punk rock and video games, definately a great guy to have living with me (well except the fact hes the most untidy bastard ever :) lol, newho, its a good set up ive got goin for myself, so yeah, miss everyone, lve ya andrew, daddy, mommy, and my littelist bro, johnny boy ;)

p.s. my number is 403-210-6547, anyone can call me anytime, its all good ;) *thats right bastards call me inlonely :P* j/k :D

friday night ramblings

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 03:30:09 GMT

so today was my first official day of work, it went well... well except for a few mishaps, lol, i made my first veggie juice, and i forgot to put the cup at the spout... so of course i put the beets in first... big mistake... lol, red everywhere, lol, but i cleaned up and it was okay... i got my first tip, lol, 1.50, which is really good considering your not even supposed to tip, so i was pleased

ive been doing okay in school, so heres an update
Film = B
Poli Sci = C
Geography = C
Economics = C
Psychology = C

lol, so i guess im a C student... but i will admit im not doing as much as i could be, but i better start soon, i need a 3.5 GPA to get into ed, so lets hope i make it..

homesick hardcore, but im beginning to manage better,

sleep deprived from staying up to late with nadine (not what you think) so im gonna spend tonight and get a good rest (i open the store tomorrow at 10) i think im gonna like this job... so keep your fingers crossed,

... okay so my mind is blank now, talk to you later
~Josh~

lost in midterms

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 02:04:42 GMT

so this past weekend kicked some massive ass, it was definatey a fun time, so yeah, im lost in school, well not to bad, im passing, but its a definate change from high school... oh ive got a job now too, i start tomorrow at Hula Juice, this hawaii theme place, its pretty cool looking and its not a chain, so im impressed with that, but i dont know if ill like the owner, she seems kinda bossy, but hey, i cnat judge just yet ;)

okay so im a little homesick, but hey, im doin my best, and im thinking alot about what i wnat to do next year and whether or not im going to stay in calgary or not... but i just dont know... so yeah, ive gotta go and leave nadine alone cause shes trying to study and im a distraction (shes my latest crush ;) so yeah, talk to yas later, bye byes

yet another poem

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 05:46:55 GMT

Teardrops

melting down teardrops frozen from the cold
the memories I have never seem to grow old
waiting for something I cant seem to resist
the tears begin to fall and sprinkle to mist

holding on tight to the feelings I contain
something within me clasps onto the pain
theres only one weakness that keeps me alive
its the teardrops that fall from deep inside

hiding in the fog to force a smile
these precious feelings only last a while
taking the time to think when im alone
listening to songs with a mellow tone

i pray for the moment when the rain will end
I hide from the truth that makes me bend
Something hidden behind this lock
That tells how the tears lift me up

Falling behind a shadow so thick
I find something that never ceases to tick
Holding my chest I close my eyes
Walking through the shadows I don’t agonize

Hearing the clock that keeps me going
i take two more steps until something is showing
letting go of my heart to see what is there
reaching forward to hold something that seems to care

touching the surface of something smooth
I begin to realize it keeps the same tune
Not having to worry about being so bold
Its only melting teardrops frozen from the cold

blahs

Fri, 10 Oct 2003 04:39:45 GMT

hey everyone, im still alive and busy with midterms, well they are done now, but its all good casue i think i passed em all (well mostly) so yeah, school is hard, i miss windsor hardcore, and cant wait to go somewhere for xmas, (oh yeah i might get to go to london england :D) so yeah

alcohol is evil... it seems to be a main focus of the people here, although i cant complain cause thankfully im on a pretty drug free floor :) but yeah, at least one person is drunk per night, so that goes to show, and usually its more like 12 people

so yeah, lvoe you al miss you all and wish i could make sweet sweet love to you all

late night bore

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 07:22:05 GMT

well its 1:30 and im bored, fortunately im sitting in my room with 5 drunk people... all of which arent really doing anything but sitting around... im not drunk cause im tired of it, and no longer care if i am deemed anti social, casue when your drunk your not even remotly social... so yeah, im kinda cranky as you can tell, im jsut kinda sick of everyone hanging out im mine and matts room.. i mean i love hte people, but they are always here, and i cant find a way to ask them to leave.. well i have actually, ive tried the i want to study.. but they laugh and say that i wont study... i dunno what can i do i guess, i think ill just talk to mat about it, see what he thinks, but i know that i need to get a lot more study time in.. and i like to study in my room, so we will see....*Argh*

in other news today i bought a printer, one cd (pinkerton), 50 blank cds, paper, blank tapes, and it only cost me 20 dollars (thanks to gift cards)... i also found out my calling card is being used by someone else casue it went from 14 to 4 inbetween 2 uses... and wheni tried to call sandra it said taht someone was using it... but hey, i hate to make today sound so bad, it was great actually, i got a lot of useful stuff done, im just missing sandra hardcore and i said id call and didnt get to... which sucks ass, and then im sad casue my lil bro turns 9 tomorrow and im not gonna be there... and in 4 days is my moms bday too... and i have nothing to give :( but hey ill call and say i love em and sing em happy birthday

school has been scaring me, its really hard and i think that i might not do to well (im telling myself i will... but im still a bit intimidated) meh, maybe im worrying to much, but who knows, oh yeah i got to go to cats uncles house tonight.. it was amazing, they were really rich and fed us a great meal, it was roast beef, and roast potatoes and carrots and onions, and then we had some nice rolls, and for desert... oh man, for desert, we had some kick ass home made apple pie :P it was so good, and what a change :) see food makes me happy, but im still kinda blah'd out about missing people

yeah so thats enough for now, ill write a happier one soon hopefully...

busy little bees

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 01:16:17 GMT

okay so times have been getting better, today things have started to look up :D... okay well mayeb you didnt know things were down... but money troubles and course scares were all over the place, but today i felt some relief.

so heres whats been happening, ive less then 20 in my pockets so that sucks.. and i found i need to buy another 100 dollar book (sucky ass) and because of that i have to wait another week till my check comes in.. which is hardly enough for dorm.. but we will see, so yeah thats not cool, but its okay now casue i might be getting like an extra 7 grand.. which is muchly needed for second semester... but yeah like i said its all looking okay now, but oh well

... yes so what was i rambling about... oh well, newho, im happy today and thats cool, im sitting here wearing matts hat and updating my journal.. lol.. which reminds me of something matt did.. there was this advertisement for alesse (spelt wrong probably) but newho, hes like.. oh is that stuff that antidepressent.. and well now we all laugh at him horribly cause we all know that its birth control (silly bastard) but yeah that was a good time

in other news, ive decided that poli sci is fun.. hard to understand, but thats why i like it, its all new stuff to me cause i know nothing about politics, so i find it interesting... it will wear off soon prolly, but oh well

everyone should get this song.. its like techno, but great "fischerspooner - emerge" its awesome, very uplifting and makes me want to dance/juggle... thats right dance juggle, oh well... so lets see what else is new, oh yeah i miss my little brother a lot, hes a cute little bastard and im sad that i wont get to see him grow up :( but i keep telling him i love him so it should be okay

*flips over news bulliten* so yes, in a desperate attempt to find something holy and pure in university (Cause we all know its all about sin) josh has recently become less social... it seems that the social activities all involve going to the 18+ bars (thankfully im 17) but what can ya do.. so yes, heres some advice for the youngins, NEVER GO TO BARS... im kidding, go they are fun... (im on crack... this entire paragraph made no sence)

so yes... desperate now... dman it all, looks like ill actually have to go do some homework .. stupid procrastination

~Josh~

p.s. i love ontario

as it goes on

Fri, 12 Sep 2003 16:03:05 GMT

it turns out that university requires a lot of study... but more importantly money... ive found myself 3000 behind.. waiting 2 more weeks for 2000 check... which doesnt add up to me, but it looks as if ill just be a whore to the system until i get things straightened out... meanwhile as every day passes i wish more and more i was in ontario... but at the same time im strenghtening my relationships here... but they are nothing like what i found over the summer, i suppose this is a good thing, it really goes to show how accepted i felt in ontario... or rather the small town of amherstburg, but what can ya do...

on a happy note, ive managed to keep in great contact with my a'burg friends, and they all seem to greatly appreciate it :) but what can one do.... oh and dont get me wrong... i loves new brunswick, no matter where i travel, im always gonna have a family back there (and no i dont just mean the blood ones, im talking friends ya little hoser) lol, newho, my bro is one kat i miss quite badly, lol, i miss ya kid... and yes, i wish i had time to sit here and mention all the people im horribly wishing to see... but i must go see what i can buy for books with 300 dollars :( (wish me luck)

~Josh~

p.s. ive realized ihavent done a poem in a while... soon to come

something in the way

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 06:10:04 GMT

well here i am in university... who woulda thought id actually make it eh? well it turns out i did... so yes... for the first time in the week that ive been here ive decided to post. so far its a blast, i mean, the only downside is missing everyone... well some people more then others, but im sure you know who you are... its sad that i feel semi homesick, its not even really a total homesick think, i mean i was gone all summer, and i came home and then i left, i feel more homesick to amherstburg then i do to hampton... maybe its cause of all the great friends i made there.. and the one girl that i refuse to let go of... but what can i say. overall im just missing people, people who know who i am, people who i can totally be myself around and not worry... it seems in amherstburg people didnt care at all, it was great, they loved me no matter who i was... i honestly wish i was there right now, yes at 12am, even if i could just sleep in teh rasilas house and wake up knowing i was going to see all those amazing people i fell so in love with... what i wouldnt give.., i guess dwelling doesnt really help, and one would say that i should just accept the fact that its over... but i dont want to, i dont want to let go to any of the friendships ive made, and especially the ones that breach beyond friendship...*sigh*...
enough for tonight... im tired, and class is early
~Josh~

in the airport

Sat, 23 Aug 2003 23:16:32 GMT

well im on one of those silly pay per use computers in the irport waiting for my flight to arrive so i can finaly head home.. my eyes are red as hell from crying none stop for 20 minutes... the figt attendant had to try and comfort me :( it was realy sad...:(

im still alive

Sun, 17 Aug 2003 16:27:55 GMT

im in ontario and im alive and well... miss peeps alot but summer was one of the best ever. hope to see everyone soon, im home on the 23rd of aug, so its fast approaching, but unfortunately i find myself a little less then happy tobe leaving. all the new peopel ive met have definately found a special place in my heart, its almost as if i have a second home here in amherstburg.

being away from home all summer wasnt as great a learning experience asi thought, i mean i figured id be totally different, but im surprised at how little it afected me, i mean i now know that i am ready to go out to the real world (as they so oddly call it) but other then getting a little independant confidence, the summer hasnt really taught me much as far as life lessons go... oh well and the fact that families are a great tthing to have, either blood or not.

so i guess thats it for now, but im off to university on sept 1st (university of calgary) im hoping to get a little more out of this (but lets not get me wrong, the summer was a kick ass time, i dont think i was sad at all) untill next time, seeyou all later, and be sure to keep in touch,, :D

~Josh~

p.s. im at work right now... i got called of squad to do some museum work...aka sitting ata desk with internet saying hi to people... sometimes i wonder what teh governtment really does with all that money .... *shifty eyes*

countdown

Mon, 30 Jun 2003 20:06:17 GMT

in a mere 12 hours im leaving on a jet plane... i don tknow when ill be back again.. oh babe i hate to go, lol, newho, im sad as hell, but then im happy as hell as well, lol, good times, bad times, man.. the more i think about it... i get more sad, but GOOTA GO
SEEYA ALL